Cool, haha

So, you know that girl that I may have mentioned liking a while ago? I am getting closer to her. I haven't revealed my feelings (I don't think) and I'm getting more comfortable around her. We're getting to know each other ever so slightly more.

It's hard to just be someone's friend when you're kinda crazy about them, without letting it show.

Yet, I feel that my "cold" or "non-nonchalant" outward behavior is necessary so that I can first cultivate an atmosphere of friendship and trust, before attempting to build a more complex relationship (i.e. a boyfriend-girlfriend sort of thing). I believe the word "ambivalent" applies fairly accurately to my feelings when around her.

So it's interesting and weird lol.