Placebo

My latest lugubrious theory on love.

The placebo effect; a person is given a thing and told it will have an effect on them in some way, while the thing intrinsically has no power to affect said effect, the effect is gained by the person believing there is a power at work.

I can see that possibly happening with the notion that "Love" is some mystical and powerful *thing* that people can feel for each other or have between them. If they believe they have this "Love" then they can cling to it as a basis for trying harder and making their relationship work out.

For example, "I can't break my alcohol addiction no matter what I try, I'm going to give up!"
"But I love you, I will never give you up!"
"I love you too, I'll try harder!" *breaks addiction.*

In such a scenario where their feelings for each other were exactly the same but they didn't have this notion of "Love", things might not have worked out. It's easy to imagine the alcoholic succumbing to his addiction despite feeling very strong attraction to his wife.

Anyway, how else do you explain the way "Love" can disappear so fast and be so unstable. Not to mention the fact that everyone is searching for it and nothing seems to work for finding it.

But, the way I see it, if that's true then I'm going to be forever alone. And if I truly believed I was going to be forever alone I would end my life now. I haven't killed myself yet, therefore on some level deep inside of me I think I won't be forever alone. And that means that my notion of "Love" must be false.

"Love"....I'll find it one day...

I just need a girl who thinks and feels the same way about stuff as I do and I'm set. Easy right? Gah, as usual, I'm a super weird, marginalized, outlying, oddity of the computer age.

(Having this pathetic and readerless blog doesn't help that fact.)

P.s. Half the crap I write on here I don't actually believe. I don't buy into my own propaganda. I just want to express my insanity.